the rebel

when we are young, we feel invincible. we feel like nothing can touch us. we act without a second thought and we risk more than we have. sometimes we get pressured and sometimes we act on our own free will. the glory days of our youth, when we thought it was ok to be so reckless and saw no harm in what we are doing. we laughed in the face of danger and dusted ourselves off when we fell. sometimes your friends were there to pick you up when you fell; and sometimes people who you thought were your friends weren't there to catch you. back then we didn't think past the moment. we ran off the adrenaline surging through our veins, and if there was a chance we could get caught it only heightened the thrill. we never stopped to think
about the bigger picture and what our actions could lead to...

those were the good old days

then when we grow up we realize the consequences. sometimes you learn your lessons the hard way and sometimes you get away with it and the lesson catches up with you later. either way you were usually left with a good story. now that you are older, you have to be responsible. the cost is no longer worth the thrill. when you look back on your youthful years, you think to yourself...

when did i get so boring? ;)

the challenge

We come across many challenges in our lifetime. Sometime the obstacles seem like mountains that we are unable to climb. And sometimes it is so small, seemingly insignificant.
But even the smallest situation leaves a lingering affect in a persons life.

..."no matter how random the situation may seem, there always is a plan"...

the precious lives that were too young to be taken

Oh Precious Life

By: Me

Having you here with me

Now seems like a distant memory

When I could feel and touch and hold your hand

Oh what I would give to have you back again

That smile, those laughs, your beaming eyes

The room is filled with painful cries

We will never understand why it is you left

But know in our hearts is where your memory is kept

Will you save me a spot up there in heaven

That is when we will be reunited again

Until then I will constantly love and miss you

Because you have been so special to me I will never forget

You...

IN LOVING MEMORY

the summertime

Ah! the sweetness of summer! :)

This has been a fantastic summer so far. I have been able to spend time with some of my dearest friends and family. Just this last week my family spent our family vacation in Orlando, FL. We had a great time at the beach and went to a couple amusement parks. It was a lot of fun and we made a lot of good memories. One memory that was not so exciting was our mission to see the new Harry Potter theme park at Universal Studios Islands of Adventure. Mission was an epic fail! The whole day was ridiculous! We got there early and we stood in a line that wrapped all the way around the park for hours. Once in the park it was a mad dash, which also made it difficult because my Dad was in a wheel chair. We finally got in, only to stand and wait in another outrageous line to stand in. It was complete pandaemonium. People everywhere! After waiting in line for close to two hours we got up to the bridge to enter the

"Wizarding World of Harry Potter" and got turned away. They told us that this was no longer an entrance and you had to go all the way around to the other side of the park! At that point the line already was strung out in all directions. It seemed completely crazy to back track and get back in line somewhere else, after we had already wasted two hours of the day. So Casey and I decided to jump on some of the other rides and see if the line would decrease after awhile...no luck. Over the course of an entire afternoon the line stayed consistent and never seemed to diminish. There were some pretty angry people all over the place complaining, even people who had to opportunity to get into Hogwarts to ride the rides and see all the new stuff. Those people were upset because there were so many people inside that you couldn't even enjoy it. The line to get into the shops and gift stores was an hour wait alone. So at the end of the day we didn't even make it to see Harry Potter land. It wasn't worth the wait for us. But we still had fun and made some good memories of our own.

The other days of our trip were good, except for the fact that it rained every afternoon!

It is always funny when we get the family together for our vacations. There are moments when we butt heads a little but there are also moments when we are all laughing hysterically. We are not a perfect family, we don't always get along, we definitely test each others patients and push each others buttons, but we still are able to joke around with each other and be silly.

I am so blessed to have such an amazing family. I am thankful everyday for all that my parents do for our family. I also have an amazing younger brother who is growing up too fast! I would not trade my family for anything in the world. :)

the way, the truth, and the life

Your talents will take you to where you want to be, but your character is what keeps you there.

God works in mysterious ways. Sometimes He will put you in situations you never expected, situations that can make you uncomfortable and test your willingness to follow God no matter what He places in front of you. It then becomes a choice, loyalty is a decision...will you follow before, during, and after the storm?

There are also times when He reunites you with people from your past, people that have made a great impact on the person you have become. He always has new lessons to teach you. I believe that He brings people together so that we can learn from each other, have fellowship with each other, share our experiences and bring each other strength. He has called us to love one another and become His hands and feet in the world.

This world that we live in is uncertain and constantly changing, but God is eternal and unfailing. He is never changing. He is the same today, tomorrow, and forever. I put all my trust and faith in the one and only God of the universe, because in the end of days He will be the only thing that remains. I will walk all the days of my life for the glory of His kingdom. I will embrace the uncertainty.

I will walk without fear. I fear God and nothing else. I will be willing to lay down my life for the benefit of others and for God's purpose. Anxiously I wait to see where God will take me and how he will use me. Every day is a precious gift and many miracles await.

To reach all that God has in store for my life, I must remain disciplined, determined and focus on His will. I will be strong in prayer and steadfast in my faith. I will use all my time, talents, and treasure to bring more people to know and love the Lord. I want to be a light and shine for all to see.

I want to leave a legacy.

"I thirst for God, the living God. When can I come stand before him?"

Psalm 42:2

the skull and the elephant

I took an art class at NAU. I went in knowing nothing about art or painting and came out feeling very accomplished and talented! I'm very proud of my pieces. They still may not be exactly perfect or at all how I pictured them to turn out...but that is kinda how art works...it doesn't always have to be perfect and some time things you didn't mean to do add life and excitement to your work.

The Skull by Brittany Fehr

This is my very first piece...EVER! It is a representation of a still-life that we were given to recreate on a canvas. I had a lot of awesome compliments about my use of vibrant colors and the way unique style I have in capturing light and movement. It made me feel really good to have people say such nice things about my painting, because I became very frustrated with it at the very beginning. I didn't know what to do or where to start. I didn't have a trained eye that could focus on parts of the painting in pieces I felt overwhelmed, but after I put it away and gave myself time to come back to it really started to come to life. Through this first piece I was able to find my style and embrace my unique technique! Even though my skills are still very 'beginner', many people noticed something in my painting that I couldn't see, and their encouragement helped me to continue grow and develop my style as an "artist".

The Elephant by Brittany Fehr

This is my second piece. This is also of a still-life that we were given to recreate. I felt very intimidated at first by this elephant, there was so much detail in his features and his body that I had no idea how to bring all that to life on the canvas. My teacher Franklin Willis helped me by giving me different tools to use and experiment with, this was the end result. At first I hated it and then the more I worked on it the more I liked it...it slowly became more complex than I had ever intended it to be, but I really like it and think it has so great contrast and different elements that make it stand out.

the fresh start

I am a recent college graduate. I just received the most amazing graduation gift…a new car! Her name is Molly, which is short for Hot Tamale, because this car is HOTT! I’m in love with it! =)

I just got a gym membership at LifeTime Fitness and I have been working out almost every single day! I’m starting to watch what I eat and taking better care of myself.

Also, I’m currently redecorating my room, to create my own little place of silent retreat. So far, it looks great! I’m transforming everything around me.

This week I’m buying a new laptop and preparing myself to enter the real world. I’m updating my resume and putting together my portfolio, ready to put my best foot forward and keep walking.

new car, new me, new home, new path…all the components you need for a fresh start.

This is such an exciting place to be in life. All the options open to you and all you have to do is get out there and start makin’ moves! I’m ready! I’m thrilled to see where God takes me and how He will use me. I’m ecstatic to see who He will bring into my life and what ways He will grow me.

Every day is a blessing and I intend to live each day as such.

the life

Life is a journey, constantly changing and never what you expect. You are reminded of the past, confused about the present and scared of the future. Things you never thought would happen to you, end up happening. Memories are kept and cherished and it eases your heart to know you can always count on tomorrow, because tomorrow is a brand new day.

I’m 22 years old. In these 22 years of my life I have been through so much. Experiences I never thought I would have and instances where you say to yourself “this can’t be happening”. I have experienced pure joy and happiness. I have laughed till I cried and spent countless nights with people I love. I have also endured pain and hatred. Those moments that you feel lost, alone and as if nobody cares. I’ve been there...up and down, high and low, strong and weak. God has been my strength through everything!

I’m in my fourth year of college. I’m grateful that I made it this far, but it wasn’t easy to get here. Nobody can really prepare themselves for what life might throw your way, and the adventure is different for everyone.

No story, no chapter, is exactly the same. It is mysteriously beautiful. It is those times in life where you find yourself at a crossroad and you have to make the decision of which way to go. This decision could change everything.

"all you can do is play along at life and hope that sometimes you get it right."