the life

Life is a journey, constantly changing and never what you expect. You are reminded of the past, confused about the present and scared of the future. Things you never thought would happen to you, end up happening. Memories are kept and cherished and it eases your heart to know you can always count on tomorrow, because tomorrow is a brand new day.

I’m 22 years old. In these 22 years of my life I have been through so much. Experiences I never thought I would have and instances where you say to yourself “this can’t be happening”. I have experienced pure joy and happiness. I have laughed till I cried and spent countless nights with people I love. I have also endured pain and hatred. Those moments that you feel lost, alone and as if nobody cares. I’ve been there...up and down, high and low, strong and weak. God has been my strength through everything!

I’m in my fourth year of college. I’m grateful that I made it this far, but it wasn’t easy to get here. Nobody can really prepare themselves for what life might throw your way, and the adventure is different for everyone.

No story, no chapter, is exactly the same. It is mysteriously beautiful. It is those times in life where you find yourself at a crossroad and you have to make the decision of which way to go. This decision could change everything.

"all you can do is play along at life and hope that sometimes you get it right."

the graduate

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11


“Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be."

“Success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds.”


"You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them."

“Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.”

“A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.”

“A friend is a hand that is always holding yours, no matter how close or far apart you may be. A friend is someone who is always there and will always, always care. A friend is a feeling of forever in the heart.”

the best brother in the whole world

Casey (my sweet baby brother),

I love you with my whole heart, more than words could ever express. We are both very protective of each other and would do anything for each other. We have a very special and unique relationship. We have grown up a lot, separately, but also together. You have become one of my best friends and someone that I know I can always count on. You are someone who I can tell my secrets to (and you wont tell mom and dad lol!). I know that you would stand by my side through anything. You would go to battle for me any day and I would do the same for you. We can laugh hysterically about the stupidest stuff...we just get each other. Thank you for being my amazing bigger little brother :).

I love you!

the purest and most simple love a person can ever know

I'm only human, and as a human I'm not perfect. I'm going to make mistakes, I'm going to fail, I'm going to be faced with tough decisions, I'm going to fall short...it is inevitable. But I have a God who loves me. I have a God who forgives. I have a merciful God. I have a God that picks me up when I have fallen down. I'm so thankful for His love and grace on my life.

God and I spoke today

God knows me and He knows my heart! He knows my every wish, He knows my every thought, He know my every move, He knows my every sin. He created me. God gave me the chance to have a relationship with Him, a personal, deep, loving, fulfilling, powerful and trusting relationship. He knows just how to speak to me, He knows how to get my attention, He knows how to quiet me in the middle of all the noise and chaos. I'm grateful for his unconditional love. I'm a broken and sinful person. I have struggles and pains. I'm undeserving and worthless. Still He love me and comes to me in my times of need.

I know that nothing can fill me like the love of Jesus Christ. When I fall into temptation it can not fill me. It is worldly fulfillment that will ALWAYS leave you lost, broken and alone. I don't know why I still fall into the illusions that Satan puts in front of me. I want so hard to be able to reject them and follow the bright and narrow path that God has paved for me, but sometimes I go off the path and try to find my own footsteps in the sand, rather than walking with God's footsteps that are walking right next to me. But...even when I go off the path and try it on my own, God still walks with me, waiting for me to return to Him and continue my walk with Him. I always turn back to Him. He is all-powerful, all-knowing, sovereign and the truth. I want to know and live in the truth. I want to walk in the truth. I want to block out everything that is of this world. I want to fill myself with love; God's enduring, perfect and unconditional love. The purest and most simplest love a person can ever know. His love is all I need!

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

John 3:16

the Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love

by: Brittany Fehr

I embellish my body, but inside I'm breaking

this ephemeral love, only keeps my heart aching

your intense effrontery only hurts my feelings

I thought you were my counterpart but our two hearts are bleeding

make me quiet, diminish me of my strength

demur my love and watch my hands shake

i try to be furtive and not reveal to much

but my complaisant heart just wasn't strong enough

I consign this broken, burned, tattered, and beaten heart over to you

it's so restive, yet still beating, maybe you'll figure out what to do.

the past four years

Deep breath. Take it all in. Remember, these moments are precious seconds you'll never get back.
You're lucky to be here. Your experiences are so special and unique. They have made you strong and built you into the independent woman you are today.

These past four years have been some of the most challenging, most life changing, and most memorable of my life.

I am truly blessed.

the swing of things

Epic weekend! We had a blast and it was a nice break from reality!

...but now I'm back and have to jump back into the swing of things...

This week is Senior Week for Gamma Phi Beta and we have lots of fun and exciting activities throughout the week! I'm cherishing every moment, because time is running out and my four years of college is coming to a close. I want to hang on to all the little moments I have left. I'm excited to graduate and move on, but it will be really hard to say goodbye.